Hello Again! And so soon! Whatever has come over me . . .

Yesterday I posted the below image (cropped and censored – SNORE!) on the Brent Corrigan Fanbook Page in an effort to encourage people to remember to continue voting for me to be one of the 2013 Grabbys Hosts.  I figured I’d do you all a solid and repost the image UNCENSORED to enjoy!  You may have seen this illustration by Ismael Alvarez done years ago now depicting a much younger, much shaggier Brent Corrigan. I realize often times some of these things are missed by newer fans just coming to watch and follow me today.

Do you remember when Ismael Alvarez issued a version of me as my character Stan the Merman from Another Gay Sequel?  It’s still one of my favorites to-date!

I’d like to get in touch with Ismael about having him do an updated version and make this series a trio. Hell, who knows, maybe one day he might even like to partner with me and finally create that Brent Corrigan Graphic Erotic Series I’ve always wanted to pump out . . . Anyone out there got any direct connections with this amazing artist?

CHECK OUT ISMAEL’S WEBSITE BY CLICKING HERE

Ismael has always been one of my favorite queer artists. I certainly encourage you to take a look at his website and works, even pick up a print or two. His depictions of real people are some of the most lively and warm. He does such an exquisite job capturing life!

Looking back on life a few short years ago, I was still of the mind that my adult background and choices as a young person would forever hold me back from doing what I truly love in love: Making films and becoming an actor.

Well, in a handful of years I’ve been able to stare down the nay-sayers and figure it out for myself. I stood up, found the courage to move forward with my dreams and moved along. Things for me by no means are perfect. I currently operate on a level of film-making that can only exist with constant support and attention from the target audience. While social media and crowd funding websites like Kickstarter and Indie-GoGo are Godsends in today’s world of indie filmmaking, it can be frustrating when fledgling filmmakers are constantly asking of you to promote their up and coming work and even donate to the cause.

But, as you may also know that in today’s world it couldn’t be more true – “If you want to get anything done at all anymore, you’ve got to do it yourself!” If you want to see a certain kind of film made, screened at LGBT film festivals on the big screen, distributed online and sold on DVD, you’ve got to get behind the kind of people who are making the work you want to see. It’s really not that complicated of a philosophy!

I’ve always had this dream of busting open the censorship board and blowing the lid right off of our bullshit Puritanical ideals that have held our social movements back for far too long now. What world do we live in when it’s safe and fair to see people blown to bits, murdered and slashed but if you exhibit even the mildest of sexual imagery you’re done for in the world of filmmaking?! It’s a shame, an outrage, and as a person coming from an adult background and YOU, a fan knowing me from this background – it’s all bullshit for me to run around pretending like I’m not who I am and I didn’t do what I do. I’m proud of Brent Corrigan but I am Sean Paul Lockhart. It’s just a fact. A fact that so many of you have happily embraced as my journey in life continues and I grow from a boy into a man right in front of your very eyes.

This is why for my first directed film, I’m choosing to include as much of that graphic material as I see fit as an artist. “Triple Crossed” is filming in April 2013.

This film is tight, small and very simple. It’s perfect for my first directed position in the mainstream arena.

However, the budget for this project is smaller than some of the PORN FILMS I’ve been on. Sad but true. But, sweetcheeks – that ain’t stoppin’ me.

We are fully funded, with the exception of some monies needed to acquire our own lights and even a camera. Our “Angel Investor” is willing to put up the funds needed to make the film but equipment rentals are expensive and cumbersome when it comes to scheduling.

Am I going back to porn? Not right this minute. Will this be softcore? I’ll leave that up for you to decide. I will tell you the acting won’t be secondary as it is seen in too many of those bad Cinemax films. “Witches of Breastwick”? Seriously?! This is no “Witches of Breastwick”. And you know what I’m talking about if you watch cable late at night.

And yes, if you haven’t guessed already I’m asking for more help.

Two films – my very first directed project TRIPLE CROSSED – is currently campaigning.

HELP MY FIRST DIRECTED FILM DIRECTLY HERE

The second is Blue Seraph Productions (they made “Judas Kiss” – my crowning acting achievement released to this date).

The film is called The Dark Place. And for once I actually get to play the “evil bitch” that so many people have spent the last 7 years claiming I truly, really was (yes, I’m playing the bad guy you’ll hate to love!)

HELP THE DARK PLACE HERE

You can read more about both films on both of their respective crowd funding pages.  The “Triple Crossed” Indie Go Go Page is still being developed. You’ll see that the boys at Blue Seraph developing “The Dark Place” really do have their shit together – and though I don’t want to pit the two against each other, if you had a choice of ONE of just the TWO, please know your help will go further to help ME directly by contributing to “Triple Crossed”.

As always, even if you don’t have a lil extra cash laying around this month, you can help in your own way! Share this post, share those two pages on your social media outlets, and encourage your friends who might be a little better off than you are to help out some starving artists that bring a little sex, art, and aesthetic appeal to our LGBT Community.

Thank You!

Much Love,
Brent Corrigan aka Sean Paul Lockhart

Check out the video below posted by Gay Calgary from my last appearance in Edmonton!

It was a lot of fun, bit for the first time ever I was performing on stage and I couldn’t stand on the risers in front because a handful of girls were grabbing at my junk. I’m alright with some of that but not in front of the entire club where people can get the idea that they can do whatever they want with me.

For the record Edmonton and working with Pure Pride was probably one of my favorite appearances in a long time. And yes! I still take bookings like this. I might not work in front of the camera in porn but I realize most people still associate me with the adult world, so occasionally I’ll go have some fun. I really didn’t get many offers and bookings when I was active duty porn star so . . .

Much Love,
Brent

Often times I do photoshoots and I come away from them not always having a purpose right away. There they sit, sometimes for years, without seeing the light of day. Then, randomly I’ll be searching for something and I’ll run across them.  These were taken by Scott Henrichson way back in April of 2010.

I’m only choosing to share a few now (the post previous to them were taken the same day) because it’s interesting pulling things out of archives. I’ve remarked upon how easy it is sometimes to go back to a time and a place just by looking at a picture.

Specifically, these were taken in Washington D.C. when I spent a week working with D.C. Fuk!T Org shooting the safer sex promos.  The photographer here also shot all of the still imagery used on the organization’s website.

To be fair, I think one of the reasons I never shared them was because of how self conscious I was. I post them now knowing in so many ways I look virtually nothing like this. I’ve managed to put on more of the muscle I’ve always appreciated in the kind of men I like – and looking back at these I’m faced with something so obvious it’s more embarrassing NOW than it was THEN. There simply was nothing wrong with me. I was one flavor, one type of guy. And now, I more confident and more of what I’ve always wanted to be. But I genuinely did not want to use these because I wasn’t comfortable with them.

On the extreme side, in a way I liken my determination to change my physique to plastic surgery.  I’ve always been of the mind and opinion that if it makes you feel better about yourself you have every right to “go there”. I feel the same way about putting on and losing weight, dying your hair and any other alternations we can do for ourselves.

I often talk about the gym, where I’m at and the goals and I’m equally faced with people telling me I’m fine (perfect even) the way I am. While I’ve never agreed that I don’t need improvements I will also admit this notion that it’s other peoples’ business what decisions I make with my body is utter bullshit.  If I feel more like a man than a boy, and I want people to see a man when they are faced with me – then why should I not be allowed to make necessary amendments to achieve this? Furthermore, I feel like someone in my position should always work to maintain, improve and evolve because no one can stay the same always – you have to roll with it because shit changes all on it’s own, why not influence how it will change?

I’ve been pretty guarded lately with the changes in my body because on one hand I’m definitely not looking forward to the negative comments.  Even more so, I’ve failed in my goal to impress upon people that the only person making decisions about me and my image will be ME.  After all, in today’s world as individuals we have so little control over anything. If you aren’t afforded the right to choose what you do with your body and your image; what can you do?

Naturally, all this is very noble in concept . . . and I realize how idiotic it sounds considering I’ve worked to transgress to more mainstream entertainment arenas where images are constantly being tweaked by filmmakers.  In that case, I’m not going to lie – I’m game. There are always exceptions to the rule. Part of what’s so intriguing about being an actor is the chance to show off a sense of versatility both in personality and image. That is not that exists in the porn world today . . . . And lord knows, porn has given me few opportunities to show off my “versatility”.

As I write this now I have that damn Detox/Vicki Vox/Willlam Belli parody “This Boy is a Bottom” running through my head (look it up on YouTube). And now I’m officially off topic, so I’m going to distract you with the entire image and just leave it at that:

A few weeks ago I went to The Cybersocket Awards in Los Angeles as part of a Fleshjack promotion (Win a Date with Brent Corrigan!).

It was such a supreme pleasure seeing a lot of my old friends and acquaintances. I’d forgotten there were so many! I’ve always gone to those things thinking “I’m not going to know anyone” . . . it’s no secret how unpopular I was amidst the industry when I was actively pursuing a career in the adult world. People really just didn’t care to know or associate with me. A lot of producers, even, required their models to steer clear from me. Needless to say, I wasn’t always surrounded by an entourage of industry favorites and models when I’d be out and around events centered on the adult world.  It’s funny what happens when you step away from something for a while. When you finally do return, even in a limited capacity, what you thought you knew or felt before is somehow different.

Interestingly, a few of my old models were in attendance. Unfortunately, I’m not the camera phone (pose with me in the crowd!) type of person so I don’t really have anything to share from the night. I accepted the Award for Best Novelty Site for Fleshjack on behalf of Fleshjack (and was asked by Fleshjack to share all the new models they’ve added to the roster).

While I was there I ran into Stacey and Mark, the producer’s of the Chicago based Event The Grabbys. I hosted a few years back and Stacey urged me to participate in the vote for this year’s “All Stars” contest (they’re bringing back some of the best from years past).

I actually really enjoy hosting because being on the mic is . . . invigorating. And seeing as I enjoyed myself so much at The Cybersocket Awards, I figured “Why Not?” Sure, I’m retired from working as a porn model but I’m still present and fairly active. It’s not like I’m dead. I’m just retired. And I’m still “transitioning” as I call it (que the drag queen, tranny jokes). Besides, I think The Grabbys is the perfect platform to reveal to the world my new body. Like it or not, I can’t be a twink forever!

Please take some time to vote for me each week at The Grabbys Website. Right now I am the 6th one from the top. Each week 5 will be taken off the list. Be sure to vote for me often to keep me in the running!

MAKE ME A GRABBYS HOST BY VOTING HERE!

See ya on The Grabbys Stage!

Much Love,
Brent Corrigan