Events!

Guys and Dolls!

A few weeks ago (like, many at this point!) I was asked to be included in Manhunt’s 10th Anniversary Bash at The House of Blues in Boston where it all began. I was there with several other stars including porn’s perfect pup couple Austin Wilde and Anthony Romero as well as Jesse Jackman and others. The House of Blues was PACKED and you could smell the excitement in the air!

Manhunt really whipped it out for their 10th anniversary. They put a great event together and I give mad props to their promotional team for getting everything together, keeping the models in line and sober long enough to do their job to their fullest, and of course garnering a line up worth turning out for.

By the way, Jesse and his husband (is that correct? Boyfriend? Main fuck? Anyone know?) were absolutely the coolest of the entire group – not cliquish or feigning that they were better than any of the other adult stars in attendance.

You know, I’ve never really wondered why I’ve failed to make friends and family (hello! I was the black sheep, black listed boy who worked his first 2 shoots underage, that alone will get people to run screaming from me) here in the adult industry but it was this event that helped to reinforce my suspicions that most other adult stars are pretty petty and callous in the way that they treat people. When it was clear early on I was *the* outsider in this at The Manhunt Tour Finale group I just kept to myself, hung back, and tried to stay out of everyone’s way – then when it was time to work, mingle with the fans, be available for autographs and pictures, and meet people I was on-point, front and center.

You know, I realize how confusing things may appear right now with the way I am outwardly managing my career. Am I porn star or an actor? Have I stopped doing porn forever? And if that’s a decision I’ve made, why do I keep appearing as Brent Corrigan, dancing in my underwear, at these kinds of events? If I promote a more mainstream image and I’m so adamant about people knowing I run by Sean Paul Lockhart these days, why am I here promoted as Brent Corrigan for Manhunt’s 10th Anniversary and appearing with Brent Everett at Splash for New Year’s Eve?

I suppose the best way to put it is transitional.  Doing more mainstream work, working to become a screenwriter, actor and director – well, that’s a process. It doesn’t happen over night. And to be completely straight with you, the money in that arena certainly doesn’t come first. You pay your dues, put your back into it, and build working relationships and a reputation for producing quality work. All that takes time. Am I saying I’m still Brent Corrigan just for the money? Not all all. I still love doing all this work. In fact, I still love porn. I certainly still consume it on a regular basis. But I realized that what I want for my life and career is going to take many years and a shift had to begin the sooner the better.  I take appearances as Brent Corrigan because I still have an absolute blast doing these things. The fans are nice, they’re friendly, they’re even RESPECTFUL! A porn star couldn’t ask for much more than that.

Do I consider myself still a porn star? Yes. Am I still making porn? Not at the moment. Will I ever make porn again? It’s conceivable. Will I ever perform as an adult model again? Right now I’d prefer to say no. But a boy’s got a right to change his mind now, doesn’t he?!

There’s no mold, no road map, no step by step directions and ingredients list for doing what I am attempting to do these days. It’s not like I’ve looked a recipe up for baking a bundt cake online! I’m figuring it out as I go along; focused to stay true to me but also taking on suggestions and careful influence from those around me whom I trust. Some have said crazy things like I need to denounce the gay life (publicly, only!), say porn is The Devil, get married, and apologize for everything I’ve done as a kid. Yeah. Seriously. I thought that sounded crazier than only The Good Lord knows what! Aren’t you glad I didn’t take THAT advice?!

I’ve used this event and post to bring to the surface some of the questions about where my career in porn is headed and how I am still so outwardly BRENT when it’s clear SEAN is the man with the future and a new calling because it’s a great example of how life is, for me, just as varied right now as it truly appears to be. On one hand I’m bursting at the seams to let the dirty boy out and let him play with all the big dicks he can – on the other, adult Sean yearns for a different kind of career, a different kind of image and certainly a different kind of stimulation.

The truth is, I tried to get it all out of porn once. I truly did. I started and ran three companies so I could produce and direct my own porn. The first one I was utterly screwed out of  (Thanks Lee Bergeron, who conspired behind his partners’ backs with Cobra Owner Bryan Kocis!) and the second I was forced out of because my producing partner became a tyrant (thanks for becoming the very kind of person you were protecting me from, Grant Roy!).

But the truth is, it’s really no one else’s fault porn and being a producer didn’t work out for me the way I thought it should’ve. The truth is, in all of this, I’ve come to realize something so much more valuable:

While I love getting naughty with the best of ‘em,

it was never meant to define me as an individual.

That’s a pretty stellar personal revelation if you ask me. And since you’re reading my blog, I suppose you are . . .

It’s important now that I recognize some people: I want to thank Matt at Manhunt for being one of the most professional, organized and polite promoters I’ve worked with in the industry on an event like this. I’d also like to thank Manhunt for wanting to include me in their tour as well as Fleshjack for providing give aways for the events! You can check out more photos of us in at the event here: MORE PHOTOS!

AND! There is a video from the stage show starring RuPaul’s Drag Race Jessica Wild (I’m on the box second from the right in the back trying too hard) here:

Here’s another video cut by Manhunt! You can really see how much of a blast the event was just by watching:

See pictures from the other events on the tour here!

Manhunt Blog put Jesse Jackman and I in their “Caption This” Contest. 

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LOVERS, LIFE IS PRETTY GOOD IN AND OUT OF PORN.

It’s nice to get out and come to learn there’s always more

to life than what our own lives at home will reveal for us.

I’m just fortunate enough these days to be

living as though I have more than one life.

Thanks for reading and I’m happy you’re here to share with!

With Love,
Sean Paul
Lockhart

AKA

Brent Corrigan

I’m back in New York City for the first time since 2008 when I filmed Big Gay Musical (and appeared at Splash, then as well)!

This is the first time I’ve ever appeared alongside Brent Everett. If you’re in the North East, I hope you can make it out to see our show on New Year’s Eve!

(Click the banner on the right to get the details!)

Your Friend & Lover,
Brent Corrigan

FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER!

I’ll be appearing in Boston, MA this Saturday, December 17th

As part of the Manhunt 10th Anniversary Tour partnering with Fleshjack.

This is the big one!

The final stop in the tour that spanned more than 10 cities!

Several other adult stars will be there as well.

Come by, say hi, get some Manhunt schwag –

Who knows, maybe you’ll even get one of the free Brent Corrigan Fleshjacks we are handing out!

Either way I’d love to meet you and say HI!

See you in Boston at The House of Blues – 15 Lansdowne Street

Your Friend & Lover,
Brent Corrigan

PS. Anyone ever wonder why my pubes appear to be missing in all of my Fleshjack Promo Pics? Personally, I like hair “down there”, but that’s just me . . .