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Eroticism is Art Too! No? Damn.
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I made the mistake of proclaiming to Papi today something as seemingly innocent as “I can’t do it all!”
Well, maybe minus the exclamation point. I meant it like, there’s no way I can fit everything I want to do in today.
But instead, he took it as me saying “I do everything, you don’t ever do anything!”
It launched us into a little bit of a tiff, until the misunderstanding could be sorted out. The point here isn’t the actual conflict, but where it is originating.
When I stand back and take a good, long hard look at all the things I’m working toward accomplishing in the coming few months my eyes begin to haze and cloud over and my brain shuts down, tunes out and goes someplace without me. You can imagine how frustrating this can be. At a time like now, my brain should not be taking any such field trips. It’s just so – counterproductive. When I do finally come to, I discover that I’ve just spent that last 15 minutes staring blindly at roving images on the TV screen and there’s drool running down my chin. Metaphorical drool, anyway.
The book. A title has yet to reveal itself. I know, it’s extremely unfair to sit here and talk about writing the book, but not share anything about it or how it’s going. My latest uncertainty has developed as I struggle to finish a chapter. It’s not like I don’t know where I am going with it, because the events and facts are just as they are. My stylistic approach to how I am writing the book seems to lengthen the story telling process (duh) and just as I think I am drawing closer to finishing the chapter, the space between where I am and the end becomes greater. Details! Kind of important because this book needs to stand to answer all the questions in orbit, not create more. I love details. Probably too much so. They’re fun, fascinating at times and essential to the artist’s process. But they truly are not very friendly when your working toward a distinguishable goal: a deadline.
I’m choosing to write the book in novel format. It’s not a laundry list! I want to be able to illustrate what life has been like. Outline with detail (there’s that damn dreaded word again!) where my mind has been at all the different intervals of my life and the experiences I’ve had. Yes, true it’s very involved. The telling of my last 6 years is not something I am going to get a chance to do more than once. Even at 23, I can recognize and even accept that the controversy I’ve been through and the bad choices I’ve made thus far are likely about as interesting as it is going to get for me. Well, as newsworthy as it gets for me anyway.
Beyond getting lost in my own world of swimming details and rhetoric, there is another problem. The latest chapter has shaped up as something, well . . . I should just come out and say it.
Something out of an erotic novella.
Something you might read in one of those nudie magazines. This is not how I wanted things to develop! I, for all intensive purposes, am not working to illicit a masturbatory response to the trials and tribulations of my experience as a 17 year old boy on my first porn set. It’s probably best to avoid any more social backlash regarding my underage ordeal. But with this latest chapter, this is exactly what I’ve done. This book is supposed to be good for something more than a good wank! Shit, that’s what my day job is for. I wouldn’t be distressed about it if it wasn’t so confusing. You see, I don’t want to waste countless useful hours writing a direction that eventually is going to be cut and discarded. Yet, this latest chapter drifted that direction. It was done, dirty and over with before I could even reflect on the nature of it! So now I’ve begun validating and defending to myself why such language and content is necessary in the book at all. When I begin to divulge details, using graphic language, about a particular scene that was filmed, I’m not just being nasty because I can. I’m also including insight to the process. In doing so, I am answering what some might consider burning questions about things like, oh I don’t know . . . say: what it was like to work with Brent Everett and what was really going through my mind in one of my most famous scenes ever filmed. Can you see how conflicting these thoughts are for me now? Oh, and it really would be nice not squirming awkwardly as my mother reads her copy.
And so, after this I go back to not writing my erotic novel. No decisions have to be made now. I thank the universe I am aware earlier enough in the process to avoid continuing toward a possibly catastrophic direction. Now that I think about it, I can always give my mother a special copy. Or just rip the pages straight out of the copy I deliver to her personally 
Disgruntled Artist,
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Whatever you name this book, it will be ‘Part One.’
Write the thing. Write the whole thing. Write the shit out of it! Get it all down and then read it three or four times taking breaks to clear your mind. Find the essence of what needs to be told from what you have written. Then write that.
Well, my advice is usually and probably best ignored. But anyway, Great photo of You and I love the Jacket!
~ Heeey Brent ~
There is nothing which can hinder or circumvent a strong and determined soul such as yourself seeking for health, usefulness, truth and success with your book writing.
Do keep that fact well in mind and live to it, no matter what your friends, family and lover may say to the contrary. Fear none and don’t worry about nothing. You are a part of and doing something that is splendid, and you are here to get the BEST out of this PHASE of your life… Look at what you done this far so be thankful and glad over each day, and you will make it.
I know you won’t but I am saying it again anyways. If you need me I will always be and ear that will listen and my shoulder is open if you need to lean on.
~ Your dearest friend ~ (remember you wrote that to me)
StingMan
Ps. I’m thinking of you always, missing you much more!
~To My Dearest friend Brent Corrigan~
Your Angel walks beside you,
Feel him everyday,
He’ll help you through lives ups and downs,
and whatever comes your way.
He’ll guide you down the road of life,
and lights the darkest roads,
He’ll pick you up and carry you,
when you can not bear the load.
He will help to ease the pain you feel,
he’ll mend your spirits, too,
He’ll hold your hand, and shelters you,
and give you courage and strength, too.
He will speak to you with words of concern,
and he’ll listen to your plea,
He’s warm, caring, and fun loving,
wow… he’s just like… me.
You know he’s always watching,
though his form is tall & dark but you can’t see.
Its a peace you feel deep in your heart,
The Angel that walks beside you…. is me.
~ Your Dearest friend ~
StingMan
Ps. The presence of this Angel, will never go away.
Crazy thought: Title: “Life is a Highway”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nCPbL4yA7ik
Life’s like a road that you travel on
When there’s one day here and the next day gone
Sometimes you bend and sometimes you stand
Sometimes you turn your head to the wind
There’s a world outside every darkened door
Where blues won’t haunt you anymore
Where the brave are free and lovers soar
Come ride with me to the distant shore
We won’t hesitate
Break down the garden’s gate
There’s not much time left today
Esperaremos con ansia esa novela y tambien espero que pueda llegar a mexico, ya que yo soy de ahi, un saludo y un beso enorme para ti, brent! el mejor chavo que jamas aya conoscido
Hi!! Brent ~
you’re so cute.
you’re so beautiful~
Dear Brent ,
I think your main problem right now is that you over analise what ever you are doing (wich is perfectly understandable) you are not writing an autobiography you are writing your story and that story includes every aspect of your live those 6 years you seem to be covering.It is hard to believe you can fill a book at 23 considering most people at 23 could bearly fill a postcard with their live.Then again it is just that that makes you more then a pretty face and awesome body,it makes you interesting as a human being.Whatever way you will go with the book i am looking forward to reading it!! Oh and miscommunication happens to the best of us give Papi a big hug : )) XX
As a pastime writer myself, I can understand your conflict. But don’t overthink something that comes from within you, and your book certainly does. As long as that particular scene serves a purpose in the story, or as long as that particular language is necessary to help the reader get into the moment, just keep it there.
I’m very much looking forward to reading more from you. Keep going!
Zuzana
Oh writers get away with writing such filthy smut and they still manage to get it published. I think generally it’s labelled as romance or science fiction. It’s amazing what scifi writers and artists can actually get away with. Just throw in a dragon phallus or two and you’ve got a work of art. And lord of the lies, Mr Goldberg you are a filthy filthy man.
So squirming mothers could be a little off putting, but I’m sure she’d understand if you asked her to never ever read it unless she wants to squirm a little uncomfortably at certain sections like those chapters you’ve careful removed or edited from her copy. And even if she did read it, it’d be a little worse if she was watching all of your work. Though when you think about it these societal taboos we have are a little strange given how natural and necessary sex is. The bonobos have it right.
Good luck with the not writing of smut, though you know you will. It’s what makes writing so much fun. And who says a bit of smuts not good for you?!
Bones
I’m glad you’re going into such detail about your early experiences in the business. If you do end up with a publisher who insists on de-eroticizing that chapter, please don’t discard it. You can always use it as a blog entry here when you’re promoting the book. Erotic writing that could serve as jack-off material, inside one of the most famous scenes in the last decade of porn, written by the key participant, is golden material. I know I’d love to read it!
It’s clear how busy your life is now, and I know you’ve been Down Under, but can you say when we might start getting updates on the paid website again, or more live chats?
Well, I know exactly where this picture has been taken; I’ve been there and have fond memories of it.
Concerning eroticism and writing: eroticism has been a part of “high literature” since day one; and there is a not quite clear but definable difference to porn (without degrading porn). Porn is written in the sole purpose and style to arouse, it is written to be effective. Of course you cannot control the responses of every reader, some people get aroused by the sight of a tree (specifically if you happen to stand under it), but I guess you get the picture. Now, if you are describing the situations on a porn set (though the eyes of a teenager, not through your present eyes, if possible), it would be absurd and downright prude to consciously leave out the sexual details in order to NOT appear pornographic. It is always the style and not the words or the physical details that define a genre.
Finally, remembering our conversations, the style of your blog and e.g. your description of the discomfort on the velvet mafia set in your recent webcam show it is apparent that you have a very precise, dry and almost technical way to talk about sexual and physical topics. It is not very romantic, but it is very smart and unconsciously similar to certain forms of avant-garde literature. The effect it has on me is not pornographic but in fact not only very detailed, creating images and scenes in my mind, but in the end hilarious, oddly funny and thus utterly entertaining. No offence, but you are, as a writer, in a position where it is no criterion whatsoever if your mother would like your book. You are writing for a large anonymous audience like any professional writer (and believe me, you are about to become one). You just need to stick to your style and elaborate it.
Of course eroticism is art!
The one that are tasteful anyway
Will it be available as ebook?
I never thought of it
The idea of your mom seeing your work . AWKWARD!
I agree with Ernie: “Write the thing. Write the whole thing. Write the shit out of it!”
You CAN write and you ARE writing. Fantastic! It’s your writing that keeps me coming back to your site.
Good Luck!
Magic remains in mystery.
What’s the goal? Catharsis, satisfaction, vengence, confession, profit . . .
You seem to find the right balance in life. This will be no different.
I know the book will be a great read no matter what direction you plan to take it in (but maybe I’m a bit biased
I have faith in you. Try not to worry about deadlines too much, the words will come and the story will be told. And your mother might not like what she reads but she should be proud of you for who you have become.
Beautiful pictures as always =D
Write it as it feels right to you. In my experiences with composing literature, it seems like we do a lot of internal censorship and “scrubbing” of the words before they come out. First and foremost, be yourself. I’ve always enjoyed your writing style, and (like others have mentioned) find it conveys a real sense of what is going through your head.
Worry about being true to yourself and expressing things first…in this case, maybe thinking too much about the big picture is a hindrance rather than help.
Courage! You can do this. And I completely sympathize with having a misunderstanding with your significant other based on frustration. Goodness knows how my boyfriend put up with me while writing my master’s thesis
Sending calm thoughts your way.
Writing something at all is never easy, sitting back and looking at events in your own life and then writing about them with the reaction of the readers in mind is really, really hard, and it would be rather a sign that you’re not identifiying with your writing if you weren’t struggling with it. I believe the struggle itself is something very rewarding, and though I only know you from your online presence, I believe in your ability to write this book to your satisfaction.
As for the eroticism part… well, the people who pick this book up probably already know you’re in the adult business. Hell, I myself expected there to be some details about your work in it, just because the story you’re telling can’t be told without its proper setting. And since you chose to present your perspective in the form of a novel, it seems to me to be only natural that there are some erotic scenes. And why shouldn’t there be? You want to be frank about what happened, wouldn’t it be kind of counterproductive if you chose to gloss over what some people mind refer to as “dirty details”?
That’s not the main point you want to make, after all (some little novel for a bit of one-handed reading), and if your book mirrors this, you’ll be just fine.
Longwinded answer much, huh. The gist of it – erotic writing can be art, sure. Don’t think about your mother while doing it (the writing, I mean, of course).
I’m very much looking forward to reading the result!
Don’t worry about the erotic aspects, man. Even without them, you’d still be cringing at your mum reading… y’know… the book what you wrote, but her “My son wrote a book!” reaction will probably *way* outweigh any reaction to the actual content. And not being self-conscious about that sort of shit is kinda the writerly equivalent of not looking at the cameras. If that makes sense.
When will the book be published, and will it be available through this site?
Don’t rip out any pages, your mother will find the complete book anyway! Put everything in the book.
You weren’t planning to run for political office were you? I appreciate your openness in writing about
your life experiences.
By the way, my roommate and I sometimes scream at each other over trivial matters but we’re still
together since the mid 1970’s!
When will you have your next live webcam show?
By the way, you give good interview! Looking forward to Parts 2,3 & 4!
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Brent–
The most difficult job of writing is editing which is not to be mistaken for proofreading. True editing is pruning away the deadwood of the written word that does not convey that which you, as the writer, truly wish to convey. Editing also involves shifting a sentence or whole paragraph to another point in your work in progress for the purposes of continuity and coherence of the whole to your theme–what it is you are trying to accomplish with the entire writing. That editing discipline is the mark of an accomplished writer.
You have a good sense of the written word. Sometimes the greatest eloquence comes through in the simplest word choice. You have an artistry with words. Use editing, not a computer application function, but human vision to shape your words into a meaningful, entire composition.
Rob