Grabbys 2013 Night One

I thought these things raged on all night, but then again it was Thursday and only just the beginning . . .

Last night I met a friend out for drinks at Mini Bar. I guess it’s like the “who’s pretty” kind of place. The guys were all 8+ across the board (that’s being conservative). Frankly, it was very intimidating. I’ve always like Mini Bar, but I’m not the pretentious sort – which I’m told is pretty much the place to be if you tend to gravitate to that side of the personality spectrum. Anyway, friend of a friend was gracious enough to include me in their bottle service. Management at Mini Bar didn’t let me pay for a single shot. And presto! There I was, shit faced, mouth shut and trying to hide it. I drank more last night than I have in months. And it’s only Thursday. Sadly, I have two gears: VERY mild, or EXTREMELY wild.  I don’t know how to go out and just have a beer (unless we’re doing something culturally enriching, but when you’re in a bar/club that you can barely hear the person’s name standing next to you, there are few and fewer “enrichment opportunities”).

So, all night I kept thinking “at some point I should slide over to Hydrate and at least poke my face in”.  That’s where Chi Chi LaRue had her thing going on. I didn’t want to be rude and put down all of the great hospitality Mini Bar was showing me. And then before I knew it it was 1 AM and I was sauntering on over to Hydrate.  By the time I got there, everyone was gone and the place wreaked of vomit. I mean every damn corner. Not the best place for someone already heartbeats away from up-chucking as it was.

We stuck it out, the place began to fill up again as the other bars let out and by then I was ready to go home. My friends started dancing. Usually that’s my cue to exit. I’m that guy in the corner texting his boyfriend and looking like he’s miserable – but, he’s not. He’s just not a dancer and he just doesn’t get what’s so great about top 40 remixes.

Then I went home alone and rode my Brent Corrigan Fleshjack dildo in my hotel room.  THAT was the most enriching part of the evening, to be perfectly honest.

I saw some pictures from the event I missed. Doesn’t look like a missed anything at all.  And at the end of the day, I don’t know any of those people anyway. Okay, all this sounds resoundingly pessimistic. Truth is? I’ve been trying to look for good reasons to make a “come back” and I can’t tell if I’m hiding from them and I’ve already made up my mind.

It’s interesting. I used to want to make this “my people” but because of my history in the adult industry I was shunned. Now that I’ve moved on to a different different career direction THAT realm of entertainment doesn’t really embrace me either because of where I’ve come from.

It’s like purgatory.

Caught in the middle and going nowhere soon.

But if purgatory is an evening at Mini Bar in one of the best cities in the world, surrounded by the hottest guys imaginable – I’ll fucking take it!

Much Love,
SPL aka Brent Corrigan


  1. Jacknb50's Gravatar Jacknb50
    May 24, 2013    

    We’ve never met and are unlikely to, but I’m a little bit in love with you. And I’m old enough to be at least your dad! All the best. I like that you’re noticing the journey. Beautiful guy!

  2. Cooper's Gravatar Cooper
    May 24, 2013    

    yuk why would you go to a place full of vomit? how old are you dude? this was kinda a sad read. just sayin.

  3. May 24, 2013    

    touching revelations. thoughtful introspection. you’re really very cerebral. you should consider writing.

  4. May 24, 2013    

    Hey, Brent/SPL! I appreciate where you’re coming from and where you’re going. You seem like an awesome guy, one I’m sure can create your own scene, in either world, or just make your own. As for porn, you were instantly and consistently my favorite. As a mainstream actor, you have yet to make your name known out there, but those who’ve seen you are so impressed (including myself). You’re still young and beautiful enough to stand next to any of the competition out there, and it’s still early in the game. Don’t be discouraged, ok? Even if you have to syand alone sometimes, I always say, “The Higher, The Fewer.”…

  5. Ken's Gravatar Ken
    May 24, 2013    

    Well not good night then well hope u had lot to stare at hot. Guys lol if you drank to much ho well hope you have good time stop bring ya self dawn you doin good give ya new career time give it time

  6. darryl's Gravatar darryl
    May 24, 2013    

    Glad you had a nice time at Mini bar ! that is one of our best bars … Hopefully the rest of the weekend will be good ,,, hope to see you out and about ! I met you two years ago here and you were super sweet ,, xoxo Darryl

  7. May 24, 2013    

    Brent, I really liked your work as an actor, but I like even more, the videos you upload on Facebook, where talks and in which these with your cute puppy. Congratulations brother.

  8. May 24, 2013    

    For some reason today Youtube insisted I see the “Two Brents” video from Splash, maybe two or three years old, looked like you were TRYING to have a good time. Slowly you will move into the legit movie world and this “painful” transition will seem minor. Club Kids are the same everywhere, snotty. I’m an old man but I remember Boston in the 70s. At least when you got back to your room, you got to fuck somebody you really like.

  9. May 24, 2013    

    Hi beautiful !!

  10. May 24, 2013    

    Your mention of the Fleshjack dildo and where you put it gives a whole new meaning to the term “shameless plug”!

  11. stranded's Gravatar stranded
    May 24, 2013    

    Have always been a fan. Will always be a fan. Riding your own dildo, LMAO! Good luck with your next endeavor.

  12. Ben's Gravatar Ben
    May 24, 2013    

    I have worked behind the camera in both industries & I’m sure you’re already aware that the stigma of your beginnings will always follow you when you’re on set in the mainstream. When I read that you were aiming at being an actor, I winced; only because I know the kind of shitty things that grips & ACs say behind the above-lthe-line folks’ backs.. I don’t know you, (though I ‘might want to) but what I have read about you in your own hand seems to demonstrate a person who has the fortitude to stay above the fray. Hold your head up and keep up the good work (liked your bit in ‘big gay muscal, btw)

  13. Manchen's Gravatar Manchen
    May 25, 2013    

    sorry my English is not good.this article is too difficult for me.
    but I support you plz don’t give up :)

  14. May 25, 2013    


    Don’t worry about it. You don’t need to make a comeback! You never left. Life is full of changes and new beginnings. Embrace each with the vibrance you have for life! Yesterday is indeed yesterday.
    Do what you feel you are called to do now! Be comfortable in your own skin, or your own clothes,,,what ever you choose. Know that the true friends and fans are there because of WHO you are…not WHAT you are!

  15. ryan's Gravatar ryan
    May 25, 2013    

    i hink you should really decide what world you want to reside in. The gay adult world, or the non gay adult world. it really isnt rocket science.

  16. Not Pretentious?'s Gravatar Not Pretentious?
    May 25, 2013    

    You’re not the pretentious sort? That’s hilarious. I like that you’ve taken up comedy.

  17. Sean-Patrick's Gravatar Sean-Patrick
    May 26, 2013    

    So your high point was fucking yourself with a dildo molded after your own cock?

    Yeah, you literally fucked yourself. AND then used it as a device to promote your product with a link in your blog.

    you are very clever, indeed…. all Sean’s are… :)

    don’t go back. Mini Bar & your plastic cock fuck session was your rock bottom.

    HIGH ROAD…. or pave a new road.


  18. Alex Musgrave's Gravatar Alex Musgrave
    May 26, 2013    

    Davey Wavey posted a video recently about “boyfriend penis” — the one you want to fuck all the time (not just the monster dick of fantasies). Sounds like you’ve got your own, or your own! Love it! I wonder if it would be the same for most guys? Hmm, might have to try!

  19. Bobby's Gravatar Bobby
    May 27, 2013    

    My heart goes out to you and your desire to make a come back in the porn industry. I know something that might put things in perspective. Why don’t you travel to Moore, Oklahoma and volunteer with an organization that’s trying to help “real” people make a comeback from a devastating tragedy. Now quit your whining.

  20. May 27, 2013    

    Clearly some of the readers here don’t know how to receive a sense of humor. I’m very tongue-in-cheek with it comes to my approach to levity. Obviously my high point wasn’t fucking myself. The entire weekend was a great time – great memories made. But those are personal :-)

  21. Bob's Gravatar Bob
    May 28, 2013    

    Brent, I laughed all the way through your post. I have said this before and I will say it again, I find you refreshingly real. Your eyes always show sincerity and I really think you have a good heart. As much as I like the way you look, dressed or not, I think the inner you is what I would like to know the best. You know that old saying about pleasing people some of the time and all that crap. Just be you and don’t worry about who doesn’t understand you. Bob

  22. Tomi's Gravatar Tomi
    May 29, 2013    

    Dude –
    Working in either industry is always a challenge, even for the great greats, working upward/onward was tough when the great greats started too. Keep the faith in yourself & that humor. Stay sane stud. HUGS! t.

  23. SportGearBodhi's Gravatar SportGearBodhi
    June 1, 2013    

    Awesome! I had just gotten my Brent Corrigan Fleshjack dildo delivered and I think that I was getting MY first ride on it at about the same time. It sure did the trick for me and had me cumming over and over the next couple of hours. That was a bigger boy than I expected from the specs, but I certainly didn’t mind!

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